Shield and Sword

I was at the office and had nothing to do. It's my office life. I can be so busy one time, but the other time, I could fall asleep for I have nothing to work on.

I was reading a blog, www.amrazing.com, when I was intriqued by a quote, which more or less was "when we are angry, our pride will form not only a shield to protect our ego but also a sword to defeat our enemy".

It is true. I couldn't agree more.

As you may know, my relationship with K isn't a smooth straight journey. It has its ups and downs. We have been trying our best to compromise, hence there are so much to deal with. Our fights frequency got more seldom day by day, but still we fight.

I'm not saying that a "normal" relationship is easier to maintain, but synchronizing two dickheads in a family is hard. We both, as men, have high pride and ego. I often find myself not being able to admit that I am wrong when I know I am, let alone to apologize. 

This so called high ego get the best of us when we are angry. We build a wall to protect our idea, our paradigms. And yet we launch missiles to attack our enemy. The thing is, in a relationship, it is our partner, instead of enemy. 

I'm not giving any advice for all I know I'm still strugling with my own pride. But again, later in his post, Alex, the owner of the blog I read, reminded me, "We're all losers when we wrapped in anger". I think I'll try to remember this sentence when I was mad. In the end of the day, though we kiss and make up after fight, we still hurt our partner's heart.