Year to Come!

Hey all!

It's 22.40 here. Another hour to 2014.

This year has been so good to me. I was blessed when I found K at 2012 and decided to be together on February. Being with him made me sure to buy an apartment then I moved in with him on May. I got a new job on the same months. It didn't stop there, the blessing continued when K got a new job too. And yes, not to mention we met T, our little brother who is dear to us.

I happened to enjoy two vacations abroad with K, Bangkok and Phuket on August and HongKong on the late of October. 

I have a super dad, loving mom and caring yet funny sister. What could I ask for more? Conflict happened here and there but we remain one as family. Thank God.

With loved ones, I spent our Xmas dinner and service together. And now here I am, with lovely friends, enjoying beers and time with each other, waiting for new year to come. New chance and new blessing to hope for.

I am thankful for this year. I am grateful for what I am and who I am now.

So many wishes and hopes for this coming new year, for me, for you, for us all. So, Happy New Year, Guys! Have a blessed New Year!

If You Can't Suck It Up

It's undeniable that fighting will happen eventually. Many couples who claim they don't fight, they will fight somehow. It's normal to have a fight here and there in relationship. 

I ever wrote about "let go". Often in a fight, we think that we are the right ones. Our opinion is right and our spouse is wrong. And there's time tho' it's crystal clear that we are on the right side, we have to let it go for the sake of our relationship.

But somehow it ain't healthy if letting go is not really letting go. It is like we are saying to ourselves, "Okay, I let it go this time, but next time I won't". It is not really a let go, because we tend to remember and make it a weapon next time we have another fight. We hold grudge. This is ain't healthy at all, not just for the relationship, but also our health. 

Again as an adult, we learn how to let go, really suck it up and won't let it out. But it's normal that sometimes we can't let go. It's like we have some unfinished business. It's there, in our minds. It annoys us frequently.

As it for me, it will be helpful to bring it up to the surface. I am not saying to confront your partner, but to let your partner know that it bothers you and together you find the solution. 

It may cost you another fight, but ain't it worth it? In the end, a true relationship will survive this. You don't wanna hold grudge, for it won't set any partnership in peace.

So, if you can't suck it up, bring it up!

To Shop = To Love?

Today I was talking to two friends via whatsapp. It was clearly two different topics. I talked to T about shopping, because he wanted to change his appearance, and at the same time I chatted with M about love. Then the idea came to me.

Let me walk you through what I thought. I was imagining this scene.

I walked around a big shopping mall with friends, when I saw a gorgeous pants. I gave it a try but somehow it didn't fit me. The pants really looked good, and I was in my best condition, but when I put it on something was missing. Then I continued.

Again I found a pair of shoes. It looked good. I gave it a try. Definitely it would look good on me, if it weren't too big. The store didn't have my size. 

Then I saw a t-shirt that everyone wore. But when I wore it, it looked bad.

Falling in love is like shopping. When we meet someone and we somehow have so-called connection, we are so enthusiastic but then we will find that he's not the one for us. 

We keep looking and keep looking. Appearance will always catch our eyes. But we never find the right one. We search for a connection. An instant one. Love is about a connection, it's true. But it ain't instant. We have to dig deeper.

I was tired, I didn't know why none of my friends looked as tired as I was. I just followed them until I realize I was back to the first store. 

There, besides the gorgeous pants I tried earlier, a pair of common pants were hanging there. I didn't think it would look good on me, but having nothing to do, I took it to fitting room. Amazingly, it fitted me. I looked awesome. Well, more awesome.

For some people instant chemistry will do, but for some others, it's harder than that. We have to give chance to someone whom we think we won't have any connection with. Maybe you know what you want, but you may not know what's good for you. Who knows, he would be the one. Who knows that the one that God has planned for us is with us all along.

A Week Without K

My K went to Dubai and Istanbul for business trip. These were what I posted on my path when K was away from me.

Day 1 : I am okay, despite the fact that I found myself worrying my bebi almost all day long. The worst part is not being able to hug him when I came home tonight. It is then I realize that I love and need him so much.

Day 2 : It's been 24 hours I don't hear anything from you, beb. But I know you can take care of yourself. And I know you work hard and kick some ass over there. I miss you and I'm waiting here always....

Day 3 : It was easier. Your "hai bebi" in the morning really made my day. Hearing your voice on one minute and 41 seconds Line call was crazy. At once I knew my day would be better. And yes, it turned out it was way much better. See, I really need you bebi. Thank God to let me know that you miss me too.

Day 4 : My bebi's suddenly-heavy voice on skype enlightened my day. His jokes made me smile. Today, we texted much. It was like he was here in Jakarta. My two hours driving because of the horrible traffic was nothing because of it. He was with me all the way. Love you bebi....

Day 5 : Happy bday Bebi!!!! (GMT +7). I can think many sentences to describe how much I love you, but it ain't about me, it should be about you. But then, I am who I am now because of your love. So beb, I wish you nothing but all the best in the world for you are the best for me. I couldn't expect anyone else better than you are. Have a blast, Beb! We are now miles apart, but my heart is there, laying side by side with yours. I love you so much. 🎉🎊🎈🎁🎆🎊🎉🎈🎁🎇🎊🎁🎉🎆🎈

Day 6 : Not much conversation between me and bebi today. He woke up and we had a litle chat then he went to work. It is now 4pm there, he'll be back to his hotel around 2am Jakarta time. I miss him. Two more days....

Day 7 : I am so excited, I hardly sleep. My waiting will soon be over. Safe flight Bebi. I can't wait to hug you tomorrow... ❤️❤️❤️

He was home yesterday on day 8. I picked him up, gave him a big hug and held his hand on our way home.

The surprised was waiting him in our apartment unit. I gathered our beloved friends, I brought along my sister and they were there, singing a birthday song for him once he opened the front door. 

Then I gave him 3 box of presents, with different colors. Each color represent what was inside (oh I won't tell what inside, LOL). These were written on every box of gift that I gave him:

What word does rhyme with red?

I think I'll go with mad

For everything that you've said

I'm madly in love with you so bad

I've hardly ever felt blue

Happiness is all I knew

For I know what we've been through

No one loves me more than you do

You never like bean tho' it's green

Because it's a veggie you'd much seen

I hope you'll never bored with my mien

Coz I promise you our future will be sheen

Later at night, he hugged me tight, saying thank you for everything I did. Well I guessed he didn't know what he had done for me that made me praised him. Lol.